im blogging again now... sometime i feel like as if im not myself..
im lost in this world.. i dunno what to do.. where to go... =(( i say things that hurt people feeling when i actually don't mean it at all.. is it becos my mouth is hard.. but my heart is soft?
to those ppl who understood me will knw ba..actually i dun mean it at all...
today reached home late.. didnt have the time to go jogging at all =((
tmr im wrking after school=(( sianzzz... 6pm to 1am..
its another day passed.. dunno y nowadays i like to go jogging.. haha mayb is this world too stress le ba.. nees to jog and jog to forget everything for a moment.. well anyway no harm cos jogging is a good exercise=))
nx wk gt engine fund lab test.. good luck to me!!! haha.. sian lor test and test... project n project.. sick of it liao sia..! nx wk also got web application project presentation.. gotta wear formal sia... lol ok i gotta go slp le... tmr lesson is at 9am... am i gonna be late?? LOLs.. ok good nite bb^^.
MY FAVOURITE SONG OF THE MONTH ALTHOUGH ITS NOT THE LATEST SONG BUT I DO LIKE IT AND FIND IT MEANINGFUL...
akon, sorry blame it on me!
As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibilityAnd I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around meSo I want to take this time out to apologize for things thatI've done things that haven't occurred yetand things that they don't want to take responsibility forI'm sorry for the times that I left you homeI was on the road and you were aloneI'm sorry for the times that I had to moveI'm sorry for the fact that I did not knowThat you were sitting home just wishing weCould go back to when it was just you and meI'm sorry for the times I would neglectI'm sorry for the times I disrespectI'm sorry for the wrong things that I've doneI'm sorry I'm not always there for my sonsI'm sorry for the fact that I'm not awareThat you can't sleep at night when I am not thereBecause I'm in the streets like everydayI'm sorry for the things that I did not sayLike how you are the best thing in my worldAnd how I'm so proud to call you my girlI understand that there's some problemsAnd I'm not too blind to knowAll the pain you kept inside youEven though you might not showIf I can't apologize for being wrongThen it's just a shame on meI'll be the reason for your painAnd you can put the blame on meYou can put the blame on meYou can put the blame on meYou can put the blame on meYou can put the blame on meSaid you can put the blame on meSaid you can put the blame on meSaid you can put the blame on meYou can put the blame on meI'm sorry for the things that he put you throughAnd all the times you didn't know what to doI'm sorry that you had to go and sell those bagsJust trying to stay busy until you heard from dadWhen you would rather be home with all your kidsAs one big family with love and blissAnd even though pops treated us like kingsHe got a second wife and you didn't agreeHe got up and left you there all aloneI'm sorry that you had to do it on your ownI'm sorry that I went and added to your griefI'm sorry that your son was once a thiefI'm sorry that I grew up way to fastI wish I would of listened and not be so badI'm sorry that your life turned out this wayI'm sorry that the feds came and took me awayI understand that there's some problemsAnd I'm not too blind to knowAll the pain you kept inside youEven though you might not showIf I can't apologize for being wrongThen it's just a shame on meI?ll be the reason for your painAnd you can put the blame on meYou can put the blame on meYou can put the blame on meYou can put the blame on meYou can put the blame on meSaid you can put the blame on meSaid you can put the blame on meSaid you can put the blame on meYou can put the blame on meI'm sorry that it took so long to seeBut they were dead wrong trying to put it on meI'm sorry that it took so long to speakBut I was on tour with Gwen StefaniI'm sorry for the hand that she was dealtAnd for the embarrassment that she feltShe's just a little young girl trying to have funBut daddy should of never let her out that youngI'm sorry for Club Zen getting shut downI hope they manage better next time aroundHow was I to know she was underageIn a 21 and older club they sayWhy doesn't anybody want to take blameVerizon backed out disgracing my nameI'm just a singer trying to entertainBecause I love my fans I'll take that blameEven though the blame's on youEven though the blame's on youEven though the blame's on youI'll take that blame from youAnd you can put that blame on meAnd you can put that blame on meYou can put that blame on meYou can put that blame on meAnd you can put that blame on meAnd you can put that blame on me.
i miss my best friend
well havent been updating my blog yeah... sian of it?? lols!
im busy doing project and school stuff.. sometime i find it sick of doing it but no choice gotta do it... my life hasn't been filled with love ever since my mum left..my dad is ok as i can see he dotes on us, but i get piss off each time i see my big bro.. as fact to say im not happy each time i see him.. his mind set is just too selfish... only he can study.. i can't is it??? i should go and work full time job is it?? wtf* [sry im piss off by what he say] he is fortunate that he dun need to think much abt his sch fees and he get whatever he wants in the past when mum is around,he is not as good as what he think he is. im sorry to say that although he is my bro.ok thats all abt my family now...
my sch life? exams is coming.. need to catch up with my E-maths.. yea!
think im lazy nowadays.. haha ok will try not to.. well i wont let anything or anyone affect on my mood.. you will always see a cheerful weeqi in sch or at work.. =))
i love all those ppl who love me and treat me like a real friend.. but if you hate me...
i will give u a smile...=)) haha thats too bad!! LOLs.
shi yao i got no idea what i did to u that make you dislike me so much and keep on bad mouth to classmates abt me... i didn't owe u anything and i didn't do anything to U. i agree to what kiat siang say today.. kids nowadays... haiz...
I MISSes my Best Friend alot as very long didnt meet her and chat.. sorry im busy with my sch stuff.. meet up soon ok best friend.. i love you!
alvin is my blog long enough ??? haha.. okok im gonna stop here now.. tc all my friends..=))
i hate those ppl who bad mouth ppl yet infront of them still can act like nothing happen... FO*
well the com prog test is very hard.. the assignment is even worst..lol i think most of the ppl no idea how to do ba... lol.. haha hope can pass ba
i went to tm with rachel and shervonne although im sleepy.. haha i had my dinner .. very full cos my dad cook a delicious meal for us.. got soup somemore.. tmr my dad is gonna wake up early go market cos tmr need to offer prayer to my mum... but too bad i cant help much only can help to fold paper later at night.. cos tmr lesson start so early lor.. 9am... sianzzz... its a boring lesson.. lol haha.. i wish my mum is doin fine in another world.. im feeling sleepy but gotta help out on folding paper later.. i miss my mum.. ok gotta stop here now.. to those who are my friends i hope u guys doin well tc yea*
my childhood picture at malaysia with cousins..i will like to share some sentence with you guys..
: Our humans life is just like a lift..Every 1 lift have a weight limit and diff lifespan. we have to accept that at every floor of the lift.. human come and leave..
think this is life ba.. we gotta accept no matter what.. cos its not up to our choice at all.
what happen today?? i go to sch as per normal, attend lesson as per normal.. go straight home after sch with rachel.. well i hv been feeling down..
im quite wry abt my best fren as something bad had happened to her and her bf again but tis time its not abt BGR problem.. its a accident!! i miss my best friend alot.. wanna meet her and cry on her shoulder.. she's the best friend i ever had.
jus nw when wanting to go tp website do the eff com test.. i cant connect to internet.. so i felt very pek cek and hit on the labtop... in a blind of my eyes... the labtop jus show many colourful and blur screen... i was like dunno wat to do and guess who is the 1st person i think off?? lol
well but then my younger bro went in to my room and off the labtop for me and now its back to normal.. i make a mess out of it.. my room is in a mess too.. but i got no mood to go tidy up.. lazy yeah.. after that my dad came home and cook me dinner as he knw i didnt eat any meal for the whole day.. well its a nice dinner.. i dream abt my mum last nite.. it was those things that happened during my childhood.. we at the tampines swimming complex learning swimming and mum was waiting for us at the chair.. i really misses her alot.. really alot.. something i cry alone w/o letting anyone know and wry.. guess this is me ba.. i wish my mum will come to my dream again tonite.. i gt no idea what to study now.. com prog or maths?? or shld i do wrtorial 1st?
dunno.. ok i'll stop here now.. sign off*
my cousins dog...
Love is not complicated. It comes directly from your heart. Its only complicated when the mind tries to translate it... i copy from andy msn nick cos i like it...LOL! smile! i think it make some sense to it!!
After a tired day of work...
i called my best frenz as its her birthday today.. i bought her a birthday present.. which i think its nice.. but dunno if to her it is or not lol!!! dun think too much ok best frenz...
well at wrk today nothing much happen.. wrk wif, nizam, ariff,daniel, ubang sam.. realise tat im the only girl on shift when daniel told me.. haha LOL!! ubang sam say im a binbo again ... haha like getting use to it when ppl say tat on me.. wtf*
after tat i saw a bag which i think its cute... so i bought it... its cheap... lol dun call me [cheapo] its cute la.. to me... =) i realise tat now only shopping can make me feel happy... nothing much in life can make me feel happy beside shopping and buying those stuff i like.. im trying to make myself happy so i shop.. haha sigh* T_T. i have been playing games at home...nv go touch my books.... is it a bad sign?? ........................................................>>>>>>>>>>>>> i dun understand even if i touch =( where is my part time teacher??? i miss u haha lol!!!
take care everyone... dun be too emo or sensitive... weeqi means no harm... i dun harm anyone or hate anyone... jus being the way im.. be myself haha lol tc!!! bye bye**
